A little anger

Once again I'm dealing with a break-up. OK, it's the same break up I was getting over before, but now it's for real. I got really mad and ended a friendship with an ex-boyfriend. I felt humiliated by this individual in various ways, and finally I got mad instead of depressed.
Now the think is, in many ways, this is a nice and interesting person. And he provided caring along with the not-so-nice things. In no way was this a black and white situation.
But I tended in the past to accept bad treatment as a reflection of myself, of my innate undeservingness. I'm no longer willing to do so. It's an uphill battle, but I am determined. I will like myself and remind myself of my good qualities. And I no longer accept mistreatment.
Things end so better things can begin.
Here is an inspiring blog entry by Therese J. Bochard in her blog Beyond Blue, on the goodness of getting mad - A little anger is good. I'd add that for some of us, a lot of anger is good.

Better than TV

Saw Love in the Time of Cholera last night. It's an odd movie, about a man who falls in love as a teenager but then sleeps with oodles of lovely young women, and not with his love. The look of it is lovely - beautiful shots of South America and period costumes. The story is odd and very long at two plus hours.
But it was excellent to see a movie again. I've been missing going out to movies, and am overcoming my reluctance to watch on DVD. Movies are better than TV in any case. And even middling movies have something to offer - maybe just relaxation and an opportunity to focus on other lives.
I do love movies set in other cultures. Just a glimpse of what it might be like to live elsewhere in another time or circumstance. Letting the 'what if' muscles of the mind work a little.
This one was downloaded for me by a friend. I've joined Zip.ca now though. So soon DVD's should be 'zipping' to my door. For $4.95 a month, how can I go wrong?
See Lazy Man and Money's entertaining post on the American equivalent of Zip, Netflix - Six Months Later.